Guess you were worrying a little too much. Of course, you’ve done well without me before; don’t need you feeling like panicking when/if I go missing someday.
Yeah? Won't invite him on one of my rooftop walks then
There was a before. Except now we're in the after
It's fine. Don't need to talk about it
[ Okay, maybe he's lying a little bit. ]
I'm gonna head back to the house when I'm done here to check on Ker. You heard from Jackie? No idea if you even met the other me yet. If ya find either of em let me know
Yeah, and this "after"? Not gonna last forever. Think I'm gonna return to Alt someday, whenever the hell we get back to Earth, and still get to keep this body?
[Maybe it's a little harsh, but reality doesn't beat around the bush for anyone. And Johnny worries about V; wonders how he'll cope when he's in the real world again, without him. Kerry had said he was making a name for himself, but Johnny knows there's usually a lot more buried beneath the surface of actions that can make the foundation liable to collapse at any moment.]
Think you're lying to me. But you wanna clam up? Fine. No, I didn't find Jackie in all this mess, but I did meet the guy on my first day here. Seems like he can take care of himself. Let you know if I run into him, though.
Could've been talking about earlier or just in general, what does it matter if you've taken up a mindset like that? The same as giving up.
[Maybe V doesn't remember it, but Johnny had told him to keep fighting. And even if he doesn't, he should know; he should know that he wants him to live on with the same fire he had burning inside of himself, once.
Fuckin' agitating.]
Don't get pissed at me for calling you out. Asshole.
How am I the asshole? Explain that to me cuz I don't get it
Fuck Johnny. I'm not saying I'm not happy you got free of me. Don't have to wait until you know you burned the roof of your own mouth with pizza. You can do whatever the fuck you like whenever you want and it's not fuckin possible for me to want anything more for ya
All I'm saying is it's not that easy for me. Used to be a whole person and now I'm not and I'm not giving up on anything but cut me some fuckin slack will ya
“And I'm going back home to die.” You gonna tell me that’s not the same as giving up?
Fuck, V. It’s just the reality — I’m not gonna be around forever. You think I don’t feel the same way? But it’s just something you’re gonna have to get used to, because you don’t got a damn choice.
Don't think I noticed? Don't think I got to deal with that same feeling every day too? I'm managing, V, because I got to. Because I'm pushing through and fighting, nevermind how shitty it feels.
Fuck you and your reality. I'm not answering the rest of these texts. Go take a daytime nap and sleep off your doom and gloom before getting back to me.
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Guess you were worrying a little too much. Of course, you’ve done well without me before; don’t need you feeling like panicking when/if I go missing someday.
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There was a before. Except now we're in the after
It's fine. Don't need to talk about it
[ Okay, maybe he's lying a little bit. ]
I'm gonna head back to the house when I'm done here to check on Ker. You heard from Jackie? No idea if you even met the other me yet. If ya find either of em let me know
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[Maybe it's a little harsh, but reality doesn't beat around the bush for anyone. And Johnny worries about V; wonders how he'll cope when he's in the real world again, without him. Kerry had said he was making a name for himself, but Johnny knows there's usually a lot more buried beneath the surface of actions that can make the foundation liable to collapse at any moment.]
Think you're lying to me. But you wanna clam up? Fine. No, I didn't find Jackie in all this mess, but I did meet the guy on my first day here. Seems like he can take care of himself. Let you know if I run into him, though.
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And yeah I'm lying to you cuz there's a bunch of shit going on right now and meltdown or not people who ain't me need lookin after
[ He realizes he's being unfair, he just doesn't know what else to say. His brain feels like a mess. ]
I'm not like you
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[Putting words in his mouth (or text messages) is a surefire way to agitate him.]
What’s that supposed to mean?
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shakes u again
XD
Unless you're talking about from earlier and if it is I'm sorry I was worried about you you fuckin asshole
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[Maybe V doesn't remember it, but Johnny had told him to keep fighting. And even if he doesn't, he should know; he should know that he wants him to live on with the same fire he had burning inside of himself, once.
Fuckin' agitating.]
Don't get pissed at me for calling you out. Asshole.
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Fuck Johnny. I'm not saying I'm not happy you got free of me. Don't have to wait until you know you burned the roof of your own mouth with pizza. You can do whatever the fuck you like whenever you want and it's not fuckin possible for me to want anything more for ya
All I'm saying is it's not that easy for me. Used to be a whole person and now I'm not and I'm not giving up on anything but cut me some fuckin slack will ya
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Fuck, V. It’s just the reality — I’m not gonna be around forever. You think I don’t feel the same way? But it’s just something you’re gonna have to get used to, because you don’t got a damn choice.
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Don't know how you feel cuz if you hadn't noticed not sharing the same brain anymore
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Fuck you and your reality. I'm not answering the rest of these texts. Go take a daytime nap and sleep off your doom and gloom before getting back to me.
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