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« @SILVERHAND » TEXT ✧ AUDIO ✧ VIDEO ✧ ACTION Johnny Silverhand ✦ Cyberpunk 2077
RESIDENCE ✦ Townhouse
GEMBOND ✦ Ruby "Not here. Leave a message."

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Is that even close to what the fuck I said?

[Putting words in his mouth (or text messages) is a surefire way to agitate him.]

What’s that supposed to mean?

[disrupts]

No but that's the truth so why not just say it

shakes u again

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Meaning that you’ve already given up? Glad to see all it takes is a few delayed texts to make you lose your fire.

XD

[disrupts]

Not to quote a dick but is that close to what the fuck I said?

Unless you're talking about from earlier and if it is I'm sorry I was worried about you you fuckin asshole

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Could've been talking about earlier or just in general, what does it matter if you've taken up a mindset like that? The same as giving up.

[Maybe V doesn't remember it, but Johnny had told him to keep fighting. And even if he doesn't, he should know; he should know that he wants him to live on with the same fire he had burning inside of himself, once.

Fuckin' agitating.]

Don't get pissed at me for calling you out. Asshole.

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How am I the asshole? Explain that to me cuz I don't get it

Fuck Johnny. I'm not saying I'm not happy you got free of me. Don't have to wait until you know you burned the roof of your own mouth with pizza. You can do whatever the fuck you like whenever you want and it's not fuckin possible for me to want anything more for ya

All I'm saying is it's not that easy for me. Used to be a whole person and now I'm not and I'm not giving up on anything but cut me some fuckin slack will ya

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“And I'm going back home to die.” You gonna tell me that’s not the same as giving up?

Fuck, V. It’s just the reality — I’m not gonna be around forever. You think I don’t feel the same way? But it’s just something you’re gonna have to get used to, because you don’t got a damn choice.

[disrupts]

No that's just fuckin reality too

Don't know how you feel cuz if you hadn't noticed not sharing the same brain anymore

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Don't think I noticed? Don't think I got to deal with that same feeling every day too? I'm managing, V, because I got to. Because I'm pushing through and fighting, nevermind how shitty it feels.

Fuck you and your reality. I'm not answering the rest of these texts. Go take a daytime nap and sleep off your doom and gloom before getting back to me.

[disrupts]

[ FINE!!! Maybe he'll do just that >[ ]